its hard to face the truth;
I'd rather live in my own world.

school on friday. the course that we had to attend was mother boring, but it actually did make some sense. other than that it was siiting in class and waiting for our dam report books. ): sheesh and about the science retest, its confirmed that we have to drop to sub if we fail! :'( and i dont have enough time to study for it! its basically everything that we have studied throughout the year. rarr i going on a strike!

results were sure disappointing, and our group had quite a number of negative comments form our form teacher. heh tell me about it.

STRESSED.

Went for the weekly mass in school after that, and everyone was quite shocked when they saw me in the prayer room. like, ' what the hell are you doing here?! ' haha wtf. and i didnt really understand wat the priest was talking about, so half the time i was just in my lala land. heheh. :p

then headed to town to meet Vivien. talk, eat, play, walked around and we found Rain's picture! wah he's a drop dead gorgeous hot hunk! *melts heart* probably the first male artiste that got me oh so crazy! yay yay now i got another to drool over. :D

Here's how he looks like ;



So cute right!

After that was club training, at CCAB again. not alot of people came. had a choice of interval or circiut. seniors chose interval while we chose circuit. hah it was really tiring. :'( booo i dont wna go for club training next week! ): but the Junior League is approaching. mm hmm. went for supper with Limin and Daphne, the two hilarious people. haha it was great fun, but they kept teasing me. ): haha then Daphne sent me home.

Yay yay im going out! :)
then will hafta start studying from tmr.
*slams book*
good luck to me!

And everytime i close my eyes ; ____________

Ponned school today, and on Tuesday. heh its sucha bore, doing nothin but playing games. seriously, i'd rather stay home and sleep. besides, the weather's so good nowadays. hur. at least Tandi thinks the same way as me. :) haha.

Lower sec carnival on Wednesday. march pass was sucha screw up. :S it was total chaos, screamed and shouted, but we still couldnt handle the crowd. the games went off well, and i forgot to include some other umpires into the list. :p heh its a mistake. other than that it was us sitting in the air con room slacking our time away, and we got to but more stuff! :D cheerleading competiton was delayed for a while, but somehow we still manage to end almost on time. :) had a debrief, and some house comm meeting, and it was off for lunch. headed to GWC again with bestie for arcade! =) but it wasn't fun luh, they raised the prices! ): anyhows went to print some pics later. the machine was so complicated, spent minutes figuring it out. but pictures are good, yummy yummy! :D

Was early to meet Vivien today, and she kept insisting that i was late! rarr she's always the late one! heh and she was sick ( and still is! ) , and so hafta eat disgusting food. eck! study Amath and most of the time we walked around. aha went for the job interview at Mindcafe, and she signed up with me. =) yay we'll go shopping with our first paycheck! heh then walked round ainlessly cos we were broke. and we won a cute purple rabbit lah! :D at the arcade where you grab all the toys! dam fun please! if not for the large amount of bread we bought we could have got another toy! rarr. walked to PS to sit and talk, for like, 3 hours!? haha was great fun, got to know like so much more things! whether isit netball or other stuff ( /: ) !! but it was good. :) went off at bout 8 smthg to eat dinner.

Tired, as usual. heh will update more soon.
Good night and world peace! =)

Sometimes you might not know that these insensitve words coming out from your mouth hurts me deeply.
yes, it really does.

Nothing last forever.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
last week of school. :D mm hmm. its good and bad, basically cos i dont need to wake up in the wee hours of the morning and getting my ass outta bed BUT then, i wont get to see my friends and eyecandies! ):

Helped out in the house thinge today, and say, greenhouse was like the dirtiest compared to all the houses. heheh we played fruit salad. i really do pity the lower sec, being cheated by us and should look at wat we gave them, garlic, vinegar and soya sauce. :l and my hand still stinks from the cutting of garlic! but guess who's the most poorest thing on earth? its us! /: having ta clear all the mess after the event. ughh. and the stupid sec 1's who scolded us, get a life please! so irritating.

Checking of papers gets all of us disappointed, excluding those who do super duper well for their exams. really disappointing, thought my Math could pull me up a whole lot more. im really dreading to Wednesday when i have to face reality, which is to face my tutor. he has put in a whole lot more of effort than us taking the exam. rar it really sucks. :'(

Rest of the results were dam disappointing too, my passes are considered as fails. all these have really taught me a thing or two. youre gona regret so much more than you think you will when reality hits. and it hits really hard, when even crawling back seems so much more difficult than you think it is. so depressing huh, but thats how life is. and i gotta accept and live with it.

Found a new way to relieve stress! :) and that is to go shopping and playing the arcade! hm maybe there's already someone using this tactic but its quite useful for me in fact. after school today me and bestie headed to GWC to do some mini shopping! :D the dog's dam cute please! and i bought the phoney cute black white rubber bands! they're so pretty! YUM. =) then we went ta play arcade! and boy, it was sure shiok. i'll go there again if ever i need to relieve stress, and it will be sooon. heheh, i predict.

And now i gotta come up with an umpire's list and help Mich do her template! [: yes shall sacrifice now so that i can play free pool at her house after her O's! hoho.

And now leaving me behind, is this always the choice you gotta make?

Replies:

CELESTE ; Hah yes, not worrying, looking on the bright side. i still got next year. :) heh you take it easy too. we'll pull through this together. <3

BEITRIS ; Forgertful little thing! =P haha make sure you remember to bring your stuff! hah couldn't go.. fill me in okay! seeya! :D

VIV ; Idiot please! your blogskin's full house! i was hoping someone could use that. heh seeya soon luh BYE! <3

HUI SHIAN ; BESTIE :D yea im not really that sad, you must learn to open up too. its okay, at least you passed. think of the people who failed, example me! heh today was sucha great day. :) out again! loooooooove.

MICH ; Yes you i'm helping you change right after i blog finish! heh study for chinese so i can get free pool! haha <3!

JAMIE ; Jamie dear! :) hm everything's not really all right now. yes we'll talk soon yea? probably during the hols. <3 you truckloads yes!

SHIR ; Hello you! :) today was fun eh, all the water and stuff. heh yes miss you too! and we'll plan a outing real soon, like during the hols. much <3!

RACHEL C ; Haha cheong your skin is dam nice too please! :D hur fine la you do so well for EOYs! hmmfps.

EMILI ; Oh ya hafta take it too? rar stress during the hols eh. heh we'll make it through! haha <3 <3! :)

Bootilicious.

Flightplan's exciting. :) everyone should really go catch it! the story keeps changing and you wont know who to believe in. oooh i love mysteries. :D

Hm, yes out of boredom i changed my template once again. heh DONT ASK WHY.

Yay Chinablack tickets! :) 24th Nov.

Didn't go for CIP thing today, cos dear Ms Celeste Lee couldn't make it so i had ta accompany het not to go. heh. basically nothin much. kinda down and sick. ugh, FLU FLU GO AWAY! DONT EVER COME BACK AGAIN!

later.

I think i love you.

Stupid Friendster is making me irritated. >:(
fuck it.

dead beat.
shall type in short sentences.

End of Year results are major disppointing. ):
failed like almost everything i got back, thats like more than half of the subjects that i take.
and tchers asking us ta drop to sub science or a pure science has got me thinking.
not much of a science person.
my choice wasn't really lasting.
but if i fail my retest, its CONFIRMED that i hafta make a choice.
DANG!
all my hard work is wasted.
my math tutor must be dam disappointed now, hearing my results.
probably die of shick.
like wat the hell is wrong with me?
all these seems, real yet so fake.
i haven't accepted the fact yet, it will take time.
but i hafta wait for my Physics result, and who knows, i have to rely on my Physics to pull me through! /:

my wake up call is right now.
EOYs when im sec 3.
gona study and mug like anythin during the hols.
less playing ; less pooling ; and less committment.
:'(
don't wna regret for my O's.

DEPRESSING STUFF MAKES PEOPLE SAD! )):
sorry i wasn't there for you.

XNIJ training on Thursday.
some people pon ah, HMMM.
dam tiring, unfit please.
and i fell.
*whee*

National Colours on Friday.
and because i was fighting with Vivien that monkey we got scolded.
and HM. he was familiar.
and blazers are dam hot please, wonder who invented em.
though some people do look nice in em.
heh. :)
RIGHT.

Some umpiring thing thing in school today.
ended earlier than usual.
So me and Mich went for check up.
CANT WAIT TO GO FOR OBS! :D
had a uring test.. ):
ugh.
but no jab! :)
PHEW.
Doctor says i have perfect eyesight!
yay yay yay.

I'm PMSin without the physical thing that i'm supposed to have.

CIP tomorrow.
mordern dancing..
hurhur.
and Ali's bday tomorrow! :)

Go listen to Separated by Usher! gosh lyrics and song is dam good.
LOVE IT LUH. =D


Replies:

JEAA ; Eh i got say hi im not dao okay! haha love you too! :)

HUI SHIAN ; BESTIE! :D yes outing soon! prolly during hols kay! <3!

EVLIN ; EI EI! =D yes remember our date to eat a poisoned cake before the world ends. haha yes we'll talk more! iloveyou! <3

EMILI ; Sweets thanks. :) you dont worry so much too! love ya lorryloads! <3

BETINA ; Hey pretty. :) thanks for the lozenges! i didnt die! heheh. =P

BEITRIS ; HELLO BEITRIS YONG PEI JUAN. hurhur seeeya tmr! :)

AME ; Hi! :) err who are you? haha.

THONGS ; Wackee! =D yes got to see you finally! love you please! <3

VIVIEN ; IDIOT VIVIEN! always cause trouble! haha and i where got dao tell me! heh seeya soon to teach you Amath! :)

Get you love drunk off my hump.

HM. have been going out so much these past few days. and though exams are over, there's the main stress now, TRAINING. :l gosh i dont want it to start! -screams-

Had a netball meeting in the morning on Monday. that means we cant join in the inter class pickle ball competition! ): shucks i think its gona be dam fun la. rar we hafta attemd the lower sec netball carnival instead. then me and Mich went late for retreat. wasnt really boring, and the last part, the healing session, i cried like shit. seriously, it just came out. about family, friendships and relationships. the priest was kinda pissed, cos instead of moving round to ask for forgiveness, we all had our butts glued to the ground and tearing like anything. haha and should see the packets of tissue paper we used, can stack a tower.

Met Vivien in town later, and headed to Mambo to play pool. then walked around before she left for work. met Cel they all then went home.

Bian tai shao nu.

Tuesday was like dam fun la. :D first we had another meeting in the morning, but in the end we didn't attend it. so Bei, Jing, Mich, Hs, Hy, Cel went ta Grassroot club to play pool. went to Bei's house ta eat first. gosh her house is like deserted, glad i live in a HDB flat. heh then Jing rode over. walked somemore to the bus stop to take bus again. and my shoes were like disgusting luh, couldnt find at that spur of the moment. booked pool tables, and the stupid guard kept staring at us. like wat is the hell wrong with all the security guards in Singapore, not that i wna insult them BUT. played arcade then played pool again. chaos okay inside. haha but was super fun! :D

After that we took another bus to some CC to play basketball, in the rain. :) with some other two guys. we were like screaming while playing and squatting down when ever we saw lightning. like -.- after when we thought bout it. hah was really fun, basketball seems much more enjoyable under the rain. haha we were thoroughly drenched. sat at Macs then headed home.

School's boring today. was all the time listening rather than talking. Ms Tan's talk was quite boring too in the AVA. hah bout the new school. haven't seen some of my friends for like ages la. haha like RACHEL, she was being retarded. :) AND SHE LOOKS LIKE A DEER. im not joking. hah.

Weather nowadays are like wet wet wet! ): BOOO and i can predict the rain, thanks to my special ability. :) lol im so sleepy.

AHHHHHHHHH training tomorrow. /:

Missing those bits of you.

Repiles:

MICH ; Haha tag you're it too! :) thanks for all the help, you're doing a great job. heh <3

HUI SHIAN ; BESTIE yes will go jogging soon, dont so paranoid bout losing weight! haha cya! loooooove. :)

THONGS ; Wackee my hand's itching, where are you?! haha cya BOO! :D

CELESTE ; Cel! im so not violent! haha ya i want to go swimming too! let's go on a weekend and hopefully it doesn't rain! haha <3

DRAWING BLOCK ; RAR MISS YOU TOO! :) today's fun in the AVA!

MABEL ; HIII MABEL! :D

REENA ; SUNSHINE! =D miss you tons! im gona cya like really soon. heh all the best for exams! i <3 you too. :)

EMILI ; EMILI! [: love you too please! haha yes school's a bore. heheh. *hugs*

JING ; FLOOD BOARD PART! yes playing in the rain is really dam fun! and not pro la, tyco. haha cya in school! <3!

SAM ; BERRYKEN ; SPL ; WORKER you are being missed badly too! meet up soon! during the hols kays! :D

All that i ever need, _____

Saturday wasn't too bad after all. tension did first built up in me, especially when i got to play positions that i didnt really expect myself too. but WE WON! :D hahaha the best thing. thanks for all the motivation people.. love ya'll. :) oooh we get money too! heheheh. then went ta town with Nat to meet Vivien while Nat met Jerlyn. ate and went slowly walked all the way ta Hilton. haha then took a cab home.

Ate Sizzler at Suntec just now. yummy please. :D haha ate till we drop. rarr food was goodie! :D and Celeste and all bought hair dye already! yayness please can dye my hair soooooon. :)

Need to go to school in the morning tomorrow for meeting. and me and Mich were on the phone planning about the fixtures and everything. it was so last minute. lucky everything's done in less than an hour. i bet Mich is still working on the fixtures. haha. and there's retreat tomorrow after the meeting. BOO I DONT WNA CRY. :'(

You dont hafta tell me who's the biggest fool of all.

Replies:

MICH ; MICH! thanks for all the help! :) haha LOVEYOU TOO!

BETINA ; PRETTY! i miss you too! :) haha yea the song's so sweet, like you. <3!

CELESTE ; CELESTE LEE! brownies were quite okay la! lucky it didnt turn out not edible or smthg. haha and we'll go swimming soon i dont care! haha cya real soon!

JING ; FLOOD BOARD PART! im not sure whether i can make it on Tuesday.. will check with ya'll kays? and we can be chefs la, just need more practice. heheh cya soon too! <3

BEITRIS ; BEI! yes pooling soon. but Tuesday's not confirmed. see how okay? love you too!

EMILI ; HEY! your skins are like dam nice too la! haha mmhmm. <3!

AH CHEONG ; PHEBEEEE let's meet up okays! talk to ya soon! :D

DRAWING BLOCK ; MISS YOU TOO! ahhh cant wait ta see ya. :) yeah i wna dye my hair! and see your tagboard! hahaha. <3

NOELLE ; HELLO YOU. :) sorry not sure bout Tuesday. during a weekend can? and someone's birthday comin huh! ;)

And bring my baby back;
bring my baby back to me.

RAR RAR RARRR.

Changed skin again out of boredom. heheh and i didn't quite like the previous one too.

Inter con finals today. im dam scared la! like i havent been playing for sucha looooong time. lost it all. i dont have the momentum in me, sheesh. this is so bad. and i have to bring the ball! dont wana have unnecessary scoldings. FUCK EVENING PLEASE GO AWAY.

Drunk bastard.

Yesterday's plan was all ruined. it was raining like anything, so me and Celeste can't go swimming, cant have fun. ): took the train from one end to the other and back again. hah so we headed to Izza's house instead, to bake brownies and with Hui Yun too. haha it was a dam tiring job la. we forgot to melt the chocolate so we had a difficult time chopping it up into small pieces, and we were grinding the almond nuts. haha and we put in coarse sugar, didn't sift the flour and not enough butter. hahaha it was surely like madness luh. lucky we had a BIG bowl and the electronic beater. or else i'll still be doing it now. haha and the funniest part was when the bakinf tin was too big for the mircowave oven! it was like only spinning halfway! hahahaha so during half time the back part was cooked but the front part wasn't! hilarious please. then Izza kept saying, ' I think we will only end up eating the ice cream! ' haha but the brownies turned out okay, no biting of the coarse sugar. lol but when we ate the brownie halfway we could taste the unsweetened not melted chocolate which almost choked us. :l ewwwwww but our brownie was good overall okay! we almost succeeded! haha then played truth or dare, dam fun please! :D oooooh then headed home. and the cab fare is like WHOA.

Gona but hair dye later. yay we're gona dye our hair! TSK AFTER THE EXAMS.

And i've just realised that i've been hurting someone so deeply, though she doesn't really know that she's the one, but yeah. i know bout it. pray that nothing will go beyond and further then that.

I truly madly deeply do.

Okay, so i'm finally back to this internet world. good day.

FINALLY EXAMS ARE OVER. sucha great feeling, no need ta stress and sleep for like 2 or 3 hours and squeeze every information that you have into your brain, and stuff some more when there's like 2 exams in one day. all gone now. and can play like mad. ' WHEEEE!

After the exams we went ta town to catch a movie, into the blue. and Jessica Alba's body is like the best! :) WHOO the show's great overall, should go catch it.

Kbox was on Wednesday, and it was like dam fun la i swear. :D sing our lungs out, low and high pitches, and it was FREEZING in there. we took turns to go toilet and were jumping in the room to keep ourselves warm la. classmates are fun. =D Bei, Ali, Eun, Yow, Sam, Cheong and Sha. <33

Bestie outing on Thursday. caught wait till you're older. and the last part i was crying like shit please. tearing non - stop. Hui Shian too. it was embarrassing. then we straight away went to the toilet after the show. haha was quite stupid cos no one was like sniffing during the movie except us. lol. and she bought me an oreo cheesecake from Bakerinn and is dam good please! :) stupid guy was like at the glass pane smiling at us, like WHAT was his problem.

Had training ion the evening. lucky coach wasn't there or else she'll scold me for not bringing the ball. :l wasn't that tough, ended sooner than i thought. finals are on Saturday. went to have supper at Tiong Bahru market then headed home. :)

Yay swimming later with Celeste at Jurong. hoho no school for me today, but Monday. ):

Everyone's so into Full House now! yay! :D the show rocks please cos there's Rain in there. :))

Tired.

Replies:

DRAWING BLOCK ; Eh i never get it mixed up okay! you're dawing block and im testpad! :) haha yay outing soon! miss you too love!

BEITRIS ; BEI! :D yes finally FREEEEE. love going out with you, so retarded. hah cya soon in school! <3!

HUI SHIAN ; BESTIE! =) yes outing was fun, sorry souldn't go jogging. another time yes. missed you like plenty. cya real soon! takecare.

RACHEL C ; CHEONGGG. :D i know thanks for spinning the machine and getting the Roo for me. heheh car racing was like fun la, play again!

CELESTE ; See you in a few hours time! =D

JING ; FLOOD BOARD PART! let's start flooding soon eh? miss you LOADS. and i flooded your board too! heh <3!

EMILI ; Hey! :) im blogging now dear. haha cya soon kays? takecare.

EUN ; Eh i dont have smell okay! and even if i have its not he grandmother smell! rarr its the soap i use, heh.

DENISE ; Yes my exams are over! :) aren't yours? SOON dont worry. haha get good results too kay smarty pants! <3!

Love the way i am.

Mmm mmm. exams end tomorrow. :) had Amath lesson today in school, was okay la, just that i had forgotten all my first term semester's work. :l liddat die la. hafta revise through the formulas again. sheesh and i havent finished studying for Lit yet.

Met Vivien in the morning on Saturday, were supposed to do some homework. but we went walking round town instead. haha oh ya, and we surprised Reena after her Physio! :D


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY REENA ; SUNSHINE! :D

Bought for her chocolate marshmallows and heart shaped brownies. was so tempted to gobble all of it down okay! heheh. sugar sweetness. YUMMY! and then me and Vivien went walking round again, eating and buying stuff, taking neos, like gluttons please! from Cine to Far East, and Far East back to Cine again, and we went ta pool! :D the feeling felt so good! then she left for Nike training while i left for Amath tuition.

Met her on Sunday again, late nehneh! always make me wait for her for like half an hour! rarrr. had her lunch and studied, we really did for a few hours. and oh my, the Amath Cambridge papers was a killer! :l couldn't do like so many questions.. i think im gona fail soon. rarr and its so funny please, the way she talk to ahem ahem. haha then bought slippers and she headed ta work.

Oooh, lovely baby! :)

Just did some online test, and here's part of the result,
--> You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Replies:

BECKS ; Yea, much misses too! :) cya soon! <3

JING ; PART! :D few more days left, hang in there!

BEITRIS ; Exams are over tmr! movie movie oooh. and Ben and Jerry's! <3!

That DJ playing that song there.

Take that! 7 down! :) hohoho. didn't manage to finish studying the last few back chapters of Physics, so when the questions came out it was like, ' yay rubber time! ' then would anyhow fill in answers in the OMR sheet. haha. STRESS AH.

Next week's Lit and Amath. Boo. :'(

Ate at Cafe Cartel. mmm, food was goood. YUMMY! :D and green eyeliner, yes please. oooh baby i'm in a shopping mood, and jokes. haha Vivien shopping tomorrow! :) and we were rejoicing like the exams WERE over, forgetting that we still had papers next week. and planned about the things we're going to do after the exams ARE OVER. rarr really cant wait. oh goodie. =D

And boy, i need ta really get some sleep! :l after the exams, i'll probably gona hibernate for quite some time, and get rid of the ugly eye bags as a result of not turning in early. shucks.

Will you listen if i spoke right from my heart?
Will you ignore me if i told you?
Rarr. emotionless freak.

We've finally made it through the fire.

Okay, a quick post before i zao off to study for my Physics. ah, killer paper. :'(

YAY 6 DOWN. :D though i have like very little confidence in all my papers because most were all last minute studying. :l just pray that i will pass my major subjects. then after exams can go PARTY!!! =D BUT then again, when we collect back our papers, it will be like S H I T. rarrr.

Replies:

BETINA ; Hey thanks. :) hm i'll know how ya'll feel too because there are people with nicer skins. heh <3.

PHEBE ; POKKIE CHEONG, you must do well too! :D cya real soon! misses.

DRAWING BLOCK ; Drawing block miss you too! :) out after the exams! yea, i'm so glad i have you. takecare and do well alrights. <3

EMILI ; Haha thanks. :) you takecare too. all the best for exams! <3

MICH ; Good luck too! :D but you don't need luck la, cause you're so smart! haha <3!

JAMIE ; Hey no problem. :) i <3 you plenty too! cya soon, and i miss you like plenty la! haha.

RACHELC ; CHEONG! yea Geog really sucked. /: rarr gona fail! i <3 you too please. :)

GWEN ; Yea i saw you too. :) haha thanks thanks all the best for exams! <3

Sometimes it just hard to breathe;
Knowing that i found you.

SO, THE BITCH FIT IN HER IS STARTING TO ACT AGAIN.
Rarr dam hell fucking irritating, what in the world does she want? shouldn't have trusted her so much. talk about changing, guess she never will.


EXAM = 2 MORE DAYS!
Glad i could study a lil, at least i understand what's going on for Physics. and a HUGE no no for Geog, definately.

Ponned school on Friday to go to Mich's house to study, and it was rather productive. :) just that i took bout a half hour sleep? at least i managed to clear some doubts about certain questions, and as usual, her house was like a food paradise. :D never fails to lighten my stomach.

Ahhh, in the evening? HUSH. :D

After the exams, i predict that some stuff's going to happen, in a rather negative way. and i'm so not prepared. someone, help. im sinking into depression again.. ):

I'm gona get get get get YOU drunk ;
Get YOU love drunk on my hump.

Replies:

EMILI ; Hey! :) takecare too sweets. <3

GWEN ; Yeah. how have you been doing? catch up soon alrights? :D

NOELLE ; Ah, whatever. both of them still has the same meaning. hahah seeyou round too! <33.

MICH ; Mich! :) good studying at your house! we can study together again! especially when we both take almost the same subjects. <3 you! X)

STEPH ; Hey, no problem. :) mug hard too! <3

DENISE ; Eh you're damn crap la, haha. i'm so not gona delete the tag! :P heh and don't slack! go study! haha. bye cute one. :D

PHEBE ; POKKIE CHEONG! =D you are welcome! thanks for everything too! yes cant wait for that day! i <3 you! :)

SHALOM ; Haha nah, its okay. kind of a blessing in disguise too. heh.

CELESTE ; Thanks ah, mentally. haha. <3

HUISHIAN ; Hm i changed the template out of boredom, and it doesn't mean im not studying! haha. TRYING too. heh <3!

JING ; Floodborad part! :D miss you plentys! no la the skin's okay, was just pretty bored. haha all the best for the exams too! <3!